Kisah empat beradik

Comel kan budak2 ni. Mereka ni 4 beradik, duduk di kaki lima hospital minta sedekah. Kedua ibu ayah diorg telah pun meninggal dunia akibat kekejaman Israel sebulan yg lalu. Maka tinggallah si kakak yg berusia 10 thn memikul tanggungjawab menjaga 3 adiknya, yg paling kecil berumur 2 thn. Semasa ditemui oleh wartawan M'sia, mereka dalam kelaparan. Si adik menangis, si kakak cool aje memujuk adiknya. Kesiannya... bayangkan budak umur 10 thn kena jaga adik, 3 org pulak tu...

Kalau budak baya Adrianna (2 thn), dia sepatutnya minum susu, makan makanan yg cukup zat dan tidur yg secukupnya. Tapi memandangkan mereka ni tidur pun di kaki lima, dan makan pun atas ihsan orang ramai, jadi kita boleh agak apa je la yg budak2 ni makan. Menurut wartawan tu lagi, pakaian kanak2 ni pun lubang sana lubang sini. Tengoklah tu, manis betul senyuman diaorg, dalam hati siapa yg tahu.

Selama aku melihat gambar2 mangsa perang dan membaca cerita2 dari bumi Palestin, hati aku masih kental menahan esakkan. Aku kebal, boleh tahan menangis, tapi aku kalah dengan kisah 4 beradik ni... aku betul2 sebak, tak tertahan air mata. Aku dok pikir macammana la kalau Adrianna yg baru 2 thn tu nak survive tanpa ibu ayah, tanpa makanan, tanpa tempat tinggal. Budak sebesar ni kita kena kawal 24jam sebab dia suka main2 & lari2... tapi budak ni.. entah macammanalah kakak dia keep on eye. Dah la nak kena cari makanan lagi.

Aku dapat rasakan betapa KENTALnya hati & betapa KUATnya semangat kakak yg paling tua tu. Baru 10 thn dah kena pikul tanggungjawab yg berat di bumi yg berperang. Kalau kat M'sia yg aman ni pun uncertain, inikan pula bumi yg berperang. Wartawan M'sia tu telah memberikan 4 bungkus nasi+ayam kepada si kakak. Dengan tersangatlah happy, kakak tu terus bawa kepada adik2 dia dan terus suapkan nasi tu... kakak tu tak makan pun sebab dia nak pastikan yg adik2 dia betul2 kenyang dulu, then baru dia makan. Wartawan tu hanya memerhati dari jauh.

Ya Allah, kesiannya. Besarnya pahala budak tu. Pengorbanan dia besar sgt2! Tak sesuai dengan umur dia. Kalau kat M'sia ni, budak 10 thn tau main je. Apalah nasib mereka nanti. Aku mohon pada Dia supaya diberikan yg terbaik utk mereka. Harap2 mereka selamat Ya Allah.

Aku tak tahan...

Palestin - China - Malaysia

Kitorg terlewat ke tempat kerja pagi ni. Tak sedar. Bagaikan ada sesuatu yang menggalakkan kitorg agar terus dibuai mimpi. Uihh, syok giler tidur! Ni yg buat aku tak sabar nak cuti panjang ni.

Boss pun dah mula cuti hari ni, senior pun takde. Tinggal aku + sorang budak baru... Semua berbangsa cina, aku sorang je anak jati melayu dlm team IT-Product Development ni. After 2 weeks tak update blog, so this is the day! haha... hip2 horay la boss takde. Cuma keje maintain tetap haru biru. There are several tasks need to be completed.

Bila aku bukak BH online pagi ni, hati aku tersentuh sgt2 bila baca tajuk "Lelaki dakwa saksi anak dibunuh askar Yahudi". Betapa jahat, keji, setan, bab-1 dan celakanya kaum yahudi.

Khaled Abed Rabbo, isteri, 3 anak, ibu & adik lelaki dia tinggal 1 rumah dan tiba2 didatangi askar yahudi & diarah kosongkan rumah. Jadi diorg pun keluarlah dari rumah tu tapi si yahudi laknat ni ambil anak2 dia yg berumur 2 thn (Amal), 4 thn (Samer) & 7 thn (Suad). Ketiga2nya diacu M16 dan ditembak bertalu2 di hadapan mereka. Ibunya turut ditembak.

Kejam!!! Apalah kudrat kanak2 tu nak melawan? Masih terlalu kecil utk kenal erti hidup...

Khaled segera mendukung Suad, isterinya dukung Amal dan si adik lelaki dukung Samer, lari sejauh 2 km sebelum ditemui pasukan bantuan & dibawa ke hospital. Namun Suad dan Amal tak dpt diselamatkan, Samer cedera parah. Nasib ibu Khaled tak pula dijelaskan.

Hati aku tersentuh bila terkenangkan yg paling kecil, Amal. Dua tahun, sebaya anakku Adrianna. Yang aku tahu, budak sebesar Adrianna hanya tahu main-makan-tidur. Tak dapat aku bayangkan jika aku letakkan situasi aku di tempat Khaled dan keluarganya, melihat Adrianna ditembak depan mata dan menemui ajalnya. I hate to say this tapi aku tak sanggup!!! Aku kalah dengan dugaan yg sgt berat & dasyat ni.

Syukur Alhamdulillah, bumi Malaysia ni masih aman & makmur. Kita bebas bergerak, bebas bergaul, anak2 kita bebas bermain dan kita juga bebas bersuara. Kita juga mewah makanan dan makan pakai. Semoga Allah melindungi saudara2 muslim kita di bumi Palestin terutamanya kanak2 yg tak berdosa.

Ni pula gambar sorang budak umur 4 thn yg melecur teruk terkena letupan bom. Meraung2 dia masa doktor nak buat dressing. Ish, gerun aku. Tak dapat aku bayangkan betapa pedihnya, sakitnya, menggeletarnya, meraungnya dia!!! Tengokla kaki dia, macam kena disiat2 kulitnya. Kesiannya dia Ya Allah. Memang laknat betul yahudi ni. Sejahat2 manusia!!!

Lagi satu, kisah melamin yg dicampurkan ke dalam susu di China yg menyebabkan 6 bayi mati dan lebih 300 ribu bayi sakit tahun lps. Org2 yg terlibat:
(1) Zhang Yujun (largest melamine producer) - dijatuhi hukuman mati.
(2) Geng Jinping, produce & jual - juga dijatuhi hukuman mati.
(3) Ketua firma tenusu Sanlu Group Co - penjara seumur hidup.
(4) Zhang Yanzhang yg kerja dgn Zhang Yujun - penjara seumur hidup.
(5) Beberapa lagi eksekutif di Sanlu - dipenjara antara 5-15 tahun.
Padan muka. Alhamdulillah, nasib baik susu anak aku tak tercemar. Kalau aku, aku bakar diorg ni macam lemang, pastu campak dlm tank Indah Water. Ni pun tak banyak bezala dgn kes yahudi tadi cuma dia pakai cara halus. Kejam!!!

Apa nak jadi dunia skrg. Macam2 hal. Kat Malaysia pulak... ada sorang ibu tunggal anjurkan pesta minum tuak di rumahnya @Tuaran, Sabah. Disebabkan minum byk sgt, sorang tetamu lelaki rogol tuan rumah yg juga tengah lalok. Esok paginya masa bangun tidur baru sedar yg dia dirogol. Sape suruh gatal2 buat pesta yg tak berfaedah tu. Padan muka.

Three different cases at 3 different places. Dari Palestin, ke China, ke Malaysia; tanah air kita.

Aku berdoa kepadamu Ya Allah, semoga aku, ahli keluarga aku, ahli keluarga suamiku, sedara mara, dan kawan2 semuanya dilindungi dari mala petaka. Andai kata ajal kami telah tiba, permudahkanlah kami dalam menghadapi sakaratul maut dan menghadapMu dalam keadaan jasad yg sempurna.

Aku sangat bersimpati dengan nasib rakyat Palestin. Kelmarin kami pegi shopping skit... no more huggies (adrianna skrg pakai saiz XXL!), nak beli nestum pun tak jadi sbb tengok2 Nestle punya. Beli ubat gigi Halagel. Sabun & bedak pun beli brand yg tak penah beli sebelum ni (yg takde dlm boycott list). Biskut pun aku beli yg local punya, no more Danone, Kraft dan yg sewaktu dengannya. Itu je la yg mampu aku buat.

Dulu, masa aku muda2 & masih bujang (skrg dah tua skit, hehe), aku pernah berniat nak join Mercy, nak jadi sukarelawan. Masa tu hot kisah Bosnia. Aku kesian tengok mangsa2 perang. Tapi itu dulu, niat suci tu sukar utk dilaksanakan. Dgn keadaan aku skrg, life aku, anak, suami, kerjaya... Tapi kata org, hendak seribu daya kan. Cuma aku tak se-strong dulu. Tengok gmbr pun sebak inikan pulak nak face mangsa2 tu. Aku cuma mampu berdoa semoga kekejaman ni cepat2 berakhir & boycott barang diaorg! Itulah usaha ciput aku setakat ni.

Boycott campaign

I found these links, listing all of the America and Israel brands in the market: inminds.co.uk and krysstal.com.

It's hard to admit that we are using most of the brands since a long time ago & comfortable with it. For instance, we've been eating Maggi since we're in hostels, KFC, Mc'D, shop at Carrefour, bought Disney shirts & dolls, Huggies diapers & Johnson2 for Adrianna & watch Nat Geo. We did indirect funding to these syaitan & iblis all this while.

But someone needs help! We can't hear their bare voices but I believe deep inside their broken heart, they are dying for help. I can't stand looking at the pictures in newspapers, blogs etc about the cruelty of Israel. Children were buried alive, peoples were bombed and fired, and the missiles hit their city like heavy rains. Israelis are extremely heartlessness!!! They intentionally want to destroy Palestinians and conquer the land. Na'uzubillah. We must stop them!!!

Thus, we need to decide what other brand that we can use to replace whatever in the list. We need to make a move now. We are an ordinary human being, we have no special position to speak & act against Israel. What we can do is pray to Allah, and with this 'little' actions of boycotting, hope this will be able to stop these syaitan & iblis from being cruel not just to Palestine, but also to Lebanon, Iraq, Afghanistan & others, indirectly may ruin their plan to become the "hero" (worst terrorist ever) of the universe!

2 months to go

I like to visit this website whenever I'm free. It's all about pregnancy, baby's development & after delivered info. I normally will suggest this website to my friends; babyfit.com. We'll know the baby's progress, what we should do, what we should avoid etc. Indirectly we may imagine how he/she is currently looks like. Usually, I put ruler on the table and imagine how big he/she is based on the facts given. It's fun, isn't it? This is the latest fact about my baby-to-birth on week 28 to 29.

Week 28-29: 3rd trimester
It's official! You're in the last trimester of your pregnancy and you're edging closer to the big day with each passing week. Your baby is growing--and wow--so are you! * Ainul: Arghh, weight gain!!!

Your baby is still little, between 0.9 to 1.1kg & 38 to 40cm long. Your baby is actually a little chubbier than before. It's because the number of fat cells she has is increasing, filling out the skin from underneath. Eyebrows & eyelashes are also growing, the hair on her head is getting longer & it's an important time for your baby's brain development.

Your Body This Week
Your weight is climbing, too! During this month, you may begin to experience Braxton Hicks contractions--a kind of "dress rehearsal" for labor that isn't dangerous for you or baby. They occur when the uterus hardens and relaxes. Because your growing baby is putting more pressure on your pelvis, your ankles and feet may swell, your legs may cramp, and as your growing uterus bears down on your bladder, you may once again feel the need to urinate more often. And don't be alarmed if you start to feel out of breath; it's just baby pushing on your diaphragm.
* Ainul: Got Braxton Hicks day and night!

Loading Up On Protein
Bring on the grilled cheese! Sure, two eggs sound great! Protein is especially crucial to your baby's development in your third trimester, so it's important that you continue to take in 3-4 servings a day. Protein builds strong muscles and rich blood and, as long as you stay away from the high fat and processed meats, you should be able to stay away from excess calories. Protein is found in more foods than you may realize.
* Wan suggests to bbq again this coming weekend, ikan kembong pulak!

Rest Easy
Your third trimester is when your body needs the most rest. Ironically, you might not be sleeping very well at this time. Between leg cramps, heartburn, and more trips to the bathroom, it seems like your body is trying to prepare you for the sleep deprivation after the baby comes! To get more and better sleep at night:
~ Go to bed and wake up at the same time each day.
~ Have a glass of milk before you go to bed at night.
~ Avoid spicy foods within 3 hours of bedtime.
~ Get a little bit of exercise or fresh air sometime in the evening.
* Ainul: Wan asked me to go to playground with Adrianna

Surviving Bed Rest
Most of the time, health benefits happen by getting physical. But sometimes, especially in the third trimester, the healthiest activity is no activity at all. If you're on bed rest, you're not alone. Every year, more than half a million expectant moms are prescribed bedrest. Bedrest has a number of health and recovery benefits and can reduce the risk of complications. So take it seriously and do your best to abide by your doctor's recommendation.
* Ainul: That's why I'm keep saying: "how good if today is a holiday..."

Cruel

I am totally distracted with this picture. Israelis are so damn cruel. They're men without heart. What can we do to help Palestinean? Tun Dr Mahathir encourages us to boycott US and Israel goods. This is to pressure US to stop supporting Israel’s attacks on Palestine. He said that Israel is the biggest persimmon (pisang kaki) exporter in the world. Alamak, I like pisang kaki! and last night, we just had Mc'Donald for dinner. Opss! We need to be more alert after this.

Today is the 10th day of the war, and more than 500 Palestineans have died. Most of them are children & women who I believe were innocent. Obama is expecting to remain the previous US policy supporting Israel. He is expecting to pull back the armies in Iraq but would not change any over Israel. Jahat giler!

Tun Dr.mahathir said as the KL Foundation to Criminalise War:
“The boycott will have to be a universal effort. If confined to Malaysia alone, it is not going to be effective but Malaysians must also play their part. We must not allow ourselves to be cowed. Even if we do little things, I think we can achieve quite a lot".

“There are opinions that the fight between the Israelis and Palestinians is about religion. The crisis is not a religious struggle between Muslims and Jews. It is a fight about territorial issue,” he said.

Yeah, this is not about religion. We should see this as terrorism issue. US claims that they are against terrorist (hero konon!) but the real truth is THEY ARE TERRORISTS. As an ordinary human being, I have no special post to do anything against Israel, I just can pray to Allah, hope that all of this war will stop immediately, may we live in peace & happy. The responsible person should be punished!

Blues

Today, I have a feeling so called blues... How nice if today is a holiday, haha... Next long holiday is another 3 weeks to come. We're planning to go to Jengka on this coming CNY. The last we've been there - during hari raya aidilfitri, it's 3 months plus ago.

Last Sunday, during check-up, doctor cannot scan due to crowded patients. She doesn't have time for that. So, I need to come again this Saturday for scanning and sugar testing. I have a problem of weight gain which I think is quite serious... I gained an average of 2kg++ per month. I am 77.5kg in weight now. Hopefully, everything is fine. During my 1st pregnancy, I was surprisingly increased 26kg. After delivered, I only managed to lose 20kg, while the rest 6kg remains as lemak tepu! So, this time, I really hope that it will not increase up to 80kg. It's hard to monitor even I actually eat just a moderate amount of carbo/rice and consume more vege & protein. Doctor suspects that it may caused by hormone changes in my body due to pregnancy.

Hmm.. talking about the scan, for 7-month old pregnancy, I should already know what the gender of my baby is, but until now, I still didn't! Because everytime we scan, he/she was 'hiding', sitting and covering what he/she has. For the preparation, it's not much as we plan to re-use whatever we have (Adrianna's), and we also bought several new shirts which is universal - not specific for a boy nor girl. Adrianna loves to kiss my tummy and call her adik "babyyy", and after that she will pointing to her own, saying that she has a baby too.

This pic was taken on June'08 during our 4d3n vacation at Kuantan Tembeling Resort. Bestnya!
... and this one was at Lumut, days after at Kuantan. We had a week off before I joined new company. Bestnya pegi vacation!

Our weekend story

Since monday lagi, Mr.Shaizwan menyatakan hasratnya untuk makan ikan terubuk bakar. Ni gara2 mkn ikan terubuk kat manjung mggu lepas yg tersangatlah fresh & sedap. Sabtu kelmarin, kitorg pun bersiap2 la dgn preparationnya mencari arang, pemegang arang, kipas, aluminium foil, fire starter & yg sewaktu dgnnya. Semangat membara ni, nak bakar sendiri. Pulak tu, dpt info dari member ofis Wan, ada ikan fresh dijual setiap Ahad kat Uptown Kota Damansara. Katanya, ikan2 tu baru turun dari Kuala Selangor. So, semalam pagi2 lagi Wan dah keluar ke pasar beli ikan terubuk & pari. Hmmm, mmg fresh pun. Balik tu, basuh2, letak dlm aluminium foil, lekat api+arang, terus bakar. Kaedah natural... tak main oven2! Masak lauk sampingan sayur sawi cina masak sos tiram, daging masak kicap dan air asam. Air asam tu aku buat semangkuk besar penuh! Fuhh... memang sedap tengok dia makan. Bertambah2 nasinya 3-4 trip. Kalau macam ni selalu, bilanya nak berdiet, hehe...

Tapi kesian kat Adrianna, kena demam pulak. Aku pun dah ding dong, tapi sib baik badan tak panas. Adrianna tak berapa nak makan, takde selera la tu. Bagi dia mkn ubat, jenuh bertarung. Si ayah pegang, si ibu sumbat ubat ke mulut dia pakai stringe. Telan la juga dalam paksa. Mulut pun tak berhenti pot-pet. Permintaan yg jelas ialah "nak main playground"... tapi memandangkan dia pun tak berapa sihat - lalok lepas mkn ubat, ayah dia pun mengantuk - makan byk punya pasal, so anak beranak tidur ptg tu. Aku pulak layan dvd citer siam lawan2.

Bangun je tidur, "nak main playground..." Kesian adrianna. Aku pulak ade checkup ptg tu. So, bawak dia main playground yg kat dlm klinik je la. Actually petang sabtu tu dah bawak dia main2 kat playground depan rumah, tapi tak puas agaknya. Syukurlah anak aku ni kategori mendengar kata, bila kata "tak boleh" tu, takde la pulak melalak ke, mengamuk ke... cool aje... Lagi satu, dia sangat suka main air. So, dua permintaan standard dia ialah:
(1) Nak main playground; (2) Nak mandi kolam

Umur baru 2 tahun sebulan tapi kalau tengok saiz, macam dah besar dah anak aku ni. Baju2 pun banyak yg dah sendat. Drastik kemain membangunnya selepas discharge hari tu. Berat dah 18kg. Tinggi pulak dah lebih separuh tinggi aku, dlm 1 meter. Seluar jeans dia aku beli saiz 9; adjustable. Lilit perut just nice tapi panjang kena lipat la. Tshirt pulak 9-11, yg girl cutting. Kalau takat saiz budak 4 tahun tu, dah macam sarung nangka daa. Kalau bagi saiz baju budak seusia dengan dia, lagilah tak muat langsung dah. Itulah perihal anak dara aku yg sorang ni. Tak kisahlah kan, janji sihat.

It's 2009

Cheer your day up! It's 2009 already. Let's make this year happier, cheerer & brighter. I wish to accomplish things that's uncompleted before plus several new aims. I'm too shy to disclose it here but somehow, there's a few things that I really want to do:

#1: Standard - become a good ibu to my little princess Adrianna Sofea, a good daughter to my parents & a good wife to my dear Shaizwan la... solehah.
#2: I want to open a saving account for Adrianna at Tabung Haji. InsyaAllah.
#3) Vacation - I want to go to Cameron Highlands again... Wish can go to an island, any! I've only been in 2 islands - Penang (island jugak kan!) & Langkawi.
#4: I want to further studies (uncertainly when).
#5: I wish that I will deliver my new baby in normal & natural way. Wish he/she will be fine & healthy too.
#6: Back to shape after delivered, perhaps get back the ideal weight mcm zaman bujang2 dulu... hehe...
#7: I want to learn more & more about java programming language. Be an expert!
#8: I want to buy Pooh and friends costumes for my little baby to birth... hihihi...
#9: Tidy up our 3rd room & clear the utility room.
#10: I want to renew my driving license - tak sedar dead last month.
#11: I wish I can meet my old friends during my school & university time, but am not willing to be the organizer of the reunion, hehe... anyone?
#12: I want to visit Wardah. I really want to see her newborn baby boy.